Kay, so... I just graduated. Sat for a good 5 hours straight just to hear my named called. I walked across the stage and walked off of it with the Valdictiorian, Science, and Social Studies awards.

Oh quick note, the longer I waited to be called up, the more I thought about how short the past four years were, and I'm sure I'm not the only one that's been there. I mean... they really flew!

I know I should be excited and all that, but I felt like I was too pushed to decide what to be. I know it might be a minor thing for most people, but maybe it isn't. I have no idea, I'm just a kid after all. I kind of wish I could take a year off, that would be so amazing! And maybe I'd have a typical worldly experience and find "myself" in the depths of Europe.

The future stuff wasn't the only thing that drifted in and out of my mind while I was sitting in my chair, idly tapping on my arm rest.

I of course came to the whole "here and now" topic. And slowly made it's way to the "then and yesterday". Not going to lie, I almost felt a little scared when I thought about how much has changed, how much I have, and how much everyone else has.

Hah, it doesn't seem like too long ago when I was in 5th grade, watching the boys and girls videos! I always thought it was hilarious that the teachers would separate the boys and girls. Had them watch their own videos, then each others! Straight comedy, don't you agree. Just kidding, it's probably only funny to me. But, by god, don't let that stop you from actually doing a little chuckle! I digress. Now, I'm ridden with filthy thoughts and still a little damp from the time I've spent in the gutter of the mind. Who ever would of thought that I'd turn out like that, riiiight?!

After that, I came to something else related to change. I came to the part that faced me with what I've done. Because, when it comes down to it, all everyone ever has is what they've acomplished. The impact they've made on others or their environment. I suppose I have some special acomplishments that are noteable to me, but in actuality is very common. But that's me, I love to make small things important to me.

When it comes down to it, I'm just a little person caught up in the moment. But everyone has that moment, everyone needs them. It gives them a chance to see the path they've walked in the one and only life they've got to live. Some people choose to make others' lives bad, just because theirs is. It makes zero sense that people would do that. I guess it's a mystery for me to solve some other time...

The time it took for these daydreams to come to an end, the S's were be called. My last name begins with a T. And what a surprise, when I snapped back to reality for a good 2 seconds to hear the name of a fellow classmate, I was chased into another thought.

Of course, I came to ask myself what made me happy in life. And of course the first thing that came to my mind was my fiance. He happened to be on the other side of the stage, I couldn't see him because he was already called. I must of daydreamed through his stage walk. I feel kind of bad, but I know he doesn't care that I cheered his name. Or does he? Just kidding. Just a year ago I didn't have a wedding band on my ring finger. If I were to name a happy time in my life, it's definately now. Even though I know my little journy could of been much much better. There's a lot of things I can complain about...

And no, I'm not just venting on this little bloggy thing, I'm giving BYOND a little something back for all the years it's provided me with entertainment. I'd almost say the internet does as damn good job of raising a teenaged suburban girl in the midwest state of Iowa. Out in the middle of the woods. Like I said, this is no vent. It's a shout out to all who have been changed by me in any way, it's to those who have been around me for the longest of times. It's to those friends who endlessly managed to make me smirk, laugh, giggle, snicker, whatever in real life, from just typing on a 2-D game engine. I call that priceless humor. It's to those Narutards, to the stuck up elitists, to the perverted kids who found it arousing to hit on, stalk, and harass me. To the people of Resident Evil Online, One and Two. Even Slaughts. To the clan of iSexy, to it's members. To the haters, the lovers, the inbetweeners. It's to my rivals, to my partners. To my friends, to my enimies, to my friends who became my enimies, to the enimies to became my friends. It's to my twin sister, SoulPhyreII.

I love you all. It's been real.

This is me, Kayla. And this is how I am. And I've just graduated highschool.