Empire

I won't go into great detail. My actions were inexcusable and I am not trying to justify them, but I want you took look at it from my point of view at least objectively. I took the actions I did because I hated how far I was falling behind and I just wanted to be able to affect the story or story of my character instead of being a hindrance or someone that takes action, but cannot compete. Situations like this frustrate me because I do love roleplay, my goal when i get on is to rp and while most find my rping style to be too provocative- I strive to stay true to the background or character traits i decided on the character.

I guess I just got too frustrated at not being able to do anything, which pushed me towards cheating to keep up. However, this is not why I was banned so I will now explain why I was banned.

I took things too personal and in an irrational fit of anger I said and did something that I am not proud of. I wasn't proud that I cheated either, I was ashamed in actuality, but I wanted to not be a bystander and just told myself 'I wont get caught, ill just do it till i can stand up and actually be a factor in situations'with that mindset, when I got caught it pissed me off because I thought to myself, 'I can't be the only one? Why am I being targetted?'

Which led me to say in my mind, 'fuck it, Ill even the playing field' This mentality is what got me banned. You see, when you do stupid things without thoughts of the consequences, you win stupid prizes.

All I ask is for the ability to play. I deserve to have the character I had deleted as it was built off the back of others anyway. All I hope to receive is the communities forgiveness, but if I don't then I cannot blame you all or the admin team.


-Yours truly,
Zokujrs