I'm a bit burned out because of the daily grind today. I went ahead and committed the latest devlog at the Newtopia Forum, but most of that work was stuff I did last night after I posted the December 3rd changes over the couple hours before bedtime. I was attending class tonight and I think I felt a tiny bout of depression setting in, so I think I might put Newtopia on a very temporary hiatus for a couple days, just to give me an opportunity to recollect myself. This definitely isn't the end of Newtopia's development. I have lots of ideas for it but I'm just feeling overworked right now and when my personal health and programming are in a conflict of interest, I say sorry to programming every time.
Normally, development for me acts as a stress release mechanism. Because I have a lot of stress, I do a lot of development. However, lately, the stress has been a bit too much for me to just vent harmlessly via programming, so I think I'm going to hit the mean streets over the next few days (Wednesday school night excepted) and go do something completely unproductive to help me relax.
Take your time with it man! See you when you get back!
Edit: Also ouch for IQ mentioning. | |
Oh crap. :(
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Evi of au wrote:
A lot of guys will tell you that clubbing is gay, but it isn't. Girls love to dance, and there is nothing more stress relieving than going to a club, mackin' and dancin'. I don't think clubbing is innately homosexual or feminine, but at least as far as I'm aware, we don't have any non-alcoholic/non-drug-pervaded clubs around. Besides, I can't dance. ;-) I figured I was going to catch the Bond flick, maybe ask out the pretty East Indian girl in class (only about eight classes left before the final exam, so if it doesn't work out we can just ignore each other from then on), and dabble here and there a smidgeon with programming, various computer games, and Newtopia's manual. I also have a copy of Serenity that I haven't watched since I got it on my birthday over a month ago! | |
In regards to your LJ post about your current situation, I want to tell you that you're not alone in the problem of being wordy, but not able to use it in conversation...
I'm that way, too... I can express myself in thought and on paper (hopefully on internet forums as well :) ), but in spoken words, none of it comes out... Though I suspect that in my case, it's out of a certain degree of shyness, introversion, and/or my personal brand of social phobia... For example, if the lady in my life wants me to talk to her about what I'm thinking/feeling, I often find all of the words perfectly aligned in my head, yet I'm unable to actually speak them... There's some sort of mental block that keeps my mouth from forming the words (it then makes her angry, because I end up remaining quiet, acting like I don't have anything to say, or making something simpler up to push her off that track) It can be a burden, especially when you know that there's something you really should be saying, yet that wall is keeping it back... | |
SSGX- Practice helps alot. I have seen that many men who get tongue tied around women are perfectly intelligent but aren't used to queuing up that quickly and so get tense, which leads to communication problems.
It takes effort- make attempts to talk to strangers. Say, the guy behind the deli counter, the woman behind the register, the postal worker. Chat about the weather, ask them how busy it's been, etc. Eventually small talk and conversation becomes natural and effortless. So chatting with new people becomes less of an effort. It's like running or drawing or anything else. Most people aren't naturally good at these things and won't improve without effort and practice! As to the OP: Good luck, and don't be afraid to talk to someone if you start felling overwhelmed. Just like physical illness can blossom into worse ailments if left untreated, our minds sometimes need som care too, and there are many caring professionals out there willing to help. It may even be a minor chemical imbalance that some simple medication can help with (though, do be careful to ask about any side effects- I know someone who was not pleased to find that the anti-depressant that was really helping also made sexual activity near impossible while on it, which certainly didn't increase happiness!). | |
Heh. I've already chatted with my doctor about it before. He thinks it's too mild to worry about. He wouldn't want me to get medication that would probably mess me up more than the teensy symptoms I feel from time to time.
It's not a matter of being unable to speak, because when someone asks me something, the words flow naturally. The problem is more along the lines that there are things that I know and things that I don't know, and in most cases those things that I don't know are things that I probably don't want to know. I'm stuck on that track, never wanting to be probing. ;-) | |
Your squarrel scares me.
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Is a squarel like a quarrel of squirrels?
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Probing squirrels?
See, that's what happens when you read these comments too quickly.... | |
A squarel is L to the power of two.
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Sounds like you need a non-computer related hobby. Sitting on the computer using your brain is nice and can be plenty of fun, but even people who enjoy it tend to realise in the back of their mind that they haven't left their desk all day.
That's one of the reasons I have trouble holding meaningful conversations with people. Most of my time is spent down the gym, on the PC or hanging out with my friends. Hanging out with my friends means I've got a fairly steady stream of stories and such, but most of the time they just sit around playing video games and smoking weed so not much happens. The Gym and the PC on the other hand don't have any conversational value outside their arenas. I don't hold up my end of the conversation because I know they either wont understand the PC related stuff or they wont care about the Gym related stuff. An offline hobby can also get you involved with a group of like-minded people and have you leaving the house (which from what you've said isn't the greatest place to spend large amounts of time). | |
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Non-computer-related hobbies? I tried that once. Things got pretty rough once they made the suicide pact and started distributing punch, though...
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Damn. Here I was getting ready to mock Worldweaver about his wrestling post (which was copied verbatim into my email as soon as it was posted the first time ;-)) and I find out it was deleted. =P
Two salient points. First point: I tried wrestling once at school; hated it. Second point: I'm no longer in school; I'm attending night classes to upgrade one of my high-school courses. | |
Egads,you have not ventedthe stress yet?
May your water be infested with cholera! | |
I don't know if you've been paying attention, but I've been working non-stop on Newikitopia, the Newtopia forums, and in general.
I've already planned to get back into development as of tomorrow evening, although if that's the attitude I'm going to find waiting for me I might bump it back a few more days... ;-) | |
Jtgibson wrote:
I've already planned to get back into development as of tomorrow evening, although if that's the attitude I'm going to find waiting for me I might bump it back a few more days... ;-) He's gone mad with power... | |
(Where I live we have underage non-alcoholic dance clubs, that's how I know.)
Anyways, Have a good time.