If you want to learn how to program in DM, there are plenty of tutorials out there to help you. Every decent programmer here has learned through them, and it's not as hard as you make it sound IF you're willing to put out the effort. If you can't put out the effort to learn, programming isn't for you anyway. Depending on the type of game you want to make, I recommend you start with one of the ZBT tutorials and keep at it until you get it right. From there you can go through the Guide and read through the Reference. If you need help or can't figure out how to get past a certain problem, feel free to ask for help on the forums.