My thoughts over the past few days have consisted of this: Suicide.
O.o I don’t mean killing myself. You dolt.
Here are my thoughts on suicide. It is, to say the least, a waste of a human being. It is also a waste of time. Here are some reasons that people give for wanting to kill themselves (The '( )' contain my responses to every excuse):
1. I have no friends!! (Well, In my point of view, if you sit at home all day, cutting yourself and the like, and make no effort to have and/or keep friends, then you have no right to complain.)
2. I have no friends because no one likes me! (That really isn’t true. There is always SOMEONE, somewhere that likes you. There are also people that like you, but you don’t like them. That is your own fault. Usually, you have your family too. Who says you can’t be friends with your parents, your siblings, or you cousins? Etc.)
3. My life is so terrible!! (For pity’s sake! This is the most pathetic excuse I have ever come across. There are a lot of people that have worse lives than you. Think about it. Some people have been taken away from everything they know and love. They are left with nothing but the courage to carry on. Some people starve to death, or die of sickness. I think they had a worse life than you.)
4. I’m so sad/angry/upset all the time! (Here is my advice. Get anti-depressant pills, or talk to a physiatrist. Or find someone you can talk to that will make you feel better.)
5. I’m too stupid! I don’t do anything right! (Everyone does something correctly. If you feel too stupid, then go study. I make sure that I learn something new everyday.)
6. The world doesn’t need me. (There are a lot of people who need you. You’re friends, family, even people you have never met need you. You make not think so, but everything you do helps someone, in some way. For example, lets pretend that you failed a math quiz. Well, someone else found out, say your mistake, and decided to better themselves, study more, and get a better grade than you.)(Like I said, everything you do changes another person. For another example: If you smile at me today, that will make me happy, and I will smile at someone else, that will make them happy, then they will smile at someone else, and so on.)
I am sure there are some I missed, but I can’t be held accountable, considering I don’t really know how ‘suiciders to be’ think.
In my opinion, everyone who is currently considering suicide, or is going to, should wise up, get over him or herself, and see the movie ‘Saw’. It might make you change your mind.
You should enjoy life. You should try and make the world better. Go out of your way to do something nice for someone. It doesn’t have to be big. You could help set the table for dinner, or get a bottle for your baby sibling, or even just tell your parent(s) how proud of them you are, and how they are doing a great job. It isn’t all that hard. Live your life as best you can everyday, so that if you were to die during the night, you would have no regret, that you didn’t live a wonderful life.
To anyone who reads this, I’d like you do something for me. Pick a person, and tell them how much you care for them. They might be gone tomorrow. After you do that, pick one more person, and tell them how proud you are of them, or how much you admire them. You could pick a complete stranger or your best friend. You can even post about it if you like. I can honestly tell you that you will have made their day wonderful by saying something nice to them, even if they don’t act like it, or refuse to accept it.
My mom taught me something cool. I just remembered it. She said this: ‘Expect nothing, and you will never be disappointed.’
What she means by that is never expect a ‘Thank you’ or a gift in return. You will be happy and surprised when someone does something nice for you, and you won’t feel bad or angry if they don’t.
New topic of conversation!
Fable: A great game. The only downside to my ‘Fable’ game is this: it won’t read. It has nothing to do with the xbox itself. The disk is just damaged. That’s all well and good. I’m getting a new one. This time I am getting it from a store. The first one I bought was from ‘www.ebay.com’. I know for a fact that it’s a disk problem because all my other games are playing perfectly. Oh well. You win some; you lose some.
Another new topic of conversation! YAY!
As we become older – we acquire a busier lifestyle. Why do you think that is? Do we have the need to feel busy? If so, is it a subconscious need? It’s not like we HAVE to be busy. It isn’t required by anyone. You could live all your life, and not be busy? Maybe we become busy because we want to better ourselves; or maybe it is just because we want to acquire nicer items.
Wow. Every time I post, my entries seem to be longer. I wonder if that has some hidden meaning.
Here is what I have been doing over the past few days: Working on Pj’s present, studying SQL/DB2, Studying for my learners permit, buying Krit a membership to BYOND (as a gift), renting a car for my mother, looking for a house/apartment, looking for work by my favorite artist: Luis Royo, listening to music, cleaning my room, playing ‘Fable’ on xbox, sleeping, eating, breathing, living. That is basically it. However, there might be something I forgot to put in that list, though I am unsure of what it is.
Have you ever seen any of Luis Royo’s work? All of his drawings are breath taking and amazing! I will post a link to one of his pictures. I am very impressed with all the detail, and the beautiful blend of color tones. It is simply magical. Here ia a link to some of his work:
http://www.jormungand.de/
I am going to play ‘Tara’ka: Carpe Noctem’. Talk to all of you later. Please post your thoughts on all the topics I addressed today. Thank you for your time and have a nice day/evening/night.
To Pj: I love you darling. Be sure to call me when you get home.
