Today is many things

1. my birthday
2. the third night in a row I have been drunk and depressed
3. the night after I spent the entire night holding hands and cuddling with the only girl I have thought about for four months who doesnt feel anything towards me but did it because she was drunk
4. the night I talk to the only girl I have thought about for four months about the night I spent the entire night holding hands and cuddling with the only girl I have thought about for four months and hear her apologize for accidentally doing these things
5. the night I decide not to drink anymore
6. the night I stop thinking about the only girl I have thought about for four months
7. probably the coolest birthday I have had: drunk depressed and alone.

poetic