A.I am Jasen117.
B.I am a Guy.
C.This is my life as far as I can remember of it;
I am a person of chronic depression to the point I take medication, I am a hopeless romantic when dating women. And for the most part I worry to much, care to much about people, and with women I try my best to make my life a chore and their life as easy as can be. Most people abuse all these traits and leave me broken and alone 9/10s so for the time being I consider myself quite shattered. The last relationship I got out of was better then the others and it's good points and bad where both greater. Anyway I was born in NewYork I lived 7 years in an area where kindness and caring for another human being was so rare it made people uneasy. Within those 7 years my family=Dad and Mother, Fought none stop for the most part added to the drinking parties with my uncle my childhood was strange. Then eventually my dad fell for my aunt and left my sister in the tub and left with my aunt who became my step mom. (Aunt as in his step brother's ex wife.) She and him ended up with me and my brother after my mom hand an emotional breakdown and he and my brother clashed so right before my dad was going to throw him in an institution my mom intervened and took my brother. And then I moved to Idaho for awhile after moving to a different house declaring bankruptcy and getting an enemy for life over a memory card. Then, In Idaho I ended up in 1-3 fights with my 'friends' complete idiots most of them I ended up in this strange group I made. My best friend was an emo, the group was a big funny kid, a pretty boy romeo, and me and my emo buddy. We knew a lot of people outside our group but we liked out group better. Anyway, I moved later on and during this I had been dealing with online relations with a 20 year old who had a boy friend. In the end I screwed up 100 times and she hated me half the time and yelled at me the other half she neglected me. (I don't see her much anymore.) From there I moved back down here after 1-2 years of stability, me and my dad moved he got a divorce she had cheated on him with first a minor and then a co-worker. Me and my dad lived close my mother we had what we called a bachelor pad we had no internet at the time just our cellphones (Black Berrys) And so we 'tethered' we had an ok life around that time I wanted to date this girl who was depressed a lot I spent hours on the phone each night trying to comfort her some days, other times I was at her house until 10. On 1 weekend I asked my dad if the offer was still open. (When she said she needed a hug once he told me to offer her one. And he'd drive me.) He said yes, we where watching a movie and eating pizza so we put the pizza away left and I shocked her dad and gave her a hug. She cried a lot that day, and later on she found out her bf was married was 21 and lied about his age and about basically everything. And her bf had done her in her sleep, go figure. Nearing the end of me and her relationship she tried offing herself the day I went to her drama performance. And kept trying to run into the road. I kept trying to stop her and we tripped and I fell on her. So she was hurt and later went home supposedly, according to her was yelled at till she cried and was high. I was blamed for it and her bf at the time (21 year old) gave me a death threat for the 2nd time 1st time was a misunderstanding 2nd was a death threat and next day I had the police called on me and according to my mother If I talked to her again I'd have a restraining order against me. Her bf hated me cause he thought I had moterboated her but I didn't even know what that meant till then. And so he threatened me and after talking I agreed to not talk to her. Which later on I decided to cause she wanted me to talk to her. He wanted me to back off. In the end she broke up with me and told me she cheated on me via text. And later on when I was supposedly dating someone she asked me to come over. And she also lied about moving that august. But I did I moved. I now live in Ogden I had a recently ok relationship that ended with me feeling uncertain who I love and don't love. And my constant issue being I don't know how to not try to go backwards. I miss the things I had and the people I lost. But I cannot get them back no matter how hard I try usually. Oh! and I had a relationship online where I lost my spine do to them making me sad and back down about everything. They did this and called me selfish and I cannibalized myself and hated myself all the time. While they kept running around with different people every other second. And I dated one of their exs someone they loved more then me but who loved me and I was good to and these where the 2 people who I dated who where guys both online. And I'm friends with the 2nd one now we broke up he worried a lot I worried a lot and I kept hurting him, as I always do. (By hurting him the small stuff, like telling everyone about our bed life and such. And that was because I hated hiding and I hating lying so I tried to avoid both.) I changed the gender I went by while dating him to see people's change in perspective, and to feel happy and like I had big bouncy boobs. But, in actuality this lie made my most recent relationship harder I told her I wasn't a girl but she forever held it against me... So I decided to start fresh.

I am an atheist I do not believe there is a god, It doesn't seem logical to me. I'm not a sports kinda person I like to play tennis if and when I can I think Soccer is ok, and I'd never try to play any other sports unless forced. I also plan to get an 'emo'/'goth' makeover around tax time. I am thinking about a sex changed if I'd look good then I probably would. I am single. I am thinking of getting an angel wings tatoo on my back and taking up smoking. But I figure I'll be a flat out drunk before I ever start smoking. I am a very impulsive person who isn't to smart and is most always tired. I am an admitted pervert, I like night time I am not a fan of large crowds. I am a sucker for, love, kisses, and I enjoy living near lots of buildings. Preferably big ones. I like cars I want one soon. I'm 16 I was born September 16,1995 around 7PM I think. I am 5' 10" and feel unattractive. I am also 150pds last I checked.