Eck, well, it turns out after going to a psychiatrist for a few weeks, I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder (manic depression). I was scheduled to go to the doctor about a week later, but I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts and I even tried cutting my wrist... so life is going to get better because I actually found out what the problem is. So I'll take my pills and get better....
And on a good note, I am buying a kitten today (I want one with black all over and white spots on her/his face and/or feet). I am also getting a Playstation 2 tomorrow with 2 controllers, 5 games, and a gameshark for only $250.... so - yay.
-Chris-
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 Oct 31 2002, 8:54 am
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Dracon wrote:
As for the PS2 where did you get a deall like that! PS2 is very good for venting frustration and anger. Also what games, just curious. You mentioned GTA3, twice ;) | |
You mentioned GTA3, twice ;) GT3 is Gran Turismo 3, which is like GTA3, except without the weapons and missions and exploration and storyline and stuff. | |
Gughunter wrote:
You mentioned GTA3, twice ;) Ooopsie, my mistake... I read wrongly and my mind must have put in the extra 'a' in the GT3 text hehe. My bad! -- Thanks for pointing out my simple mistake, Gughunter! --Lee | |
I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. :) Life is hard for everyone, but a mental illness just makes it even harder. Most people think about suicide, and some people think about it more than others... it's important to talk about your problems, even to strangers, because that takes the edge off. Hang in there!
Z | |
Zilal wrote:
it's important to talk about your problems, even to strangers, because that takes the edge off. Z Thats what I am here for :P I am a good listener and I have been told I give good advice to people on a 'one to one' chat about personal feelings and un-happiness. I know that I have helped a few people out in situations similar to this, mainly because I have gone through so much **** in my entire life that it is unreal... So, if anyone has any problems feel free to have a chat with me because I will try my best to help out ^_^ Including you, Chris. You should know that I am a good listener and helper when the chances are there :P --Lee | |
Yeah... thank you =) I'm getting help from psychiatrists and doctors, so I should be pretty safe. Life is getting better anyways -- halloween = candy. =P
-Chris- | |
Hang in there, Dracon.
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Dracon wrote:
Eck, well, it turns out after going to a psychiatrist for a few weeks, I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder (manic depression). I was scheduled to go to the doctor about a week later, but I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts and I even tried cutting my wrist... so life is going to get better because I actually found out what the problem is. So I'll take my pills and get better.... Today I thought about life. What is the point of living, you die, and forget everything.. Wait.. Your dead, you don't live period. The energy in your body escapes out into the open, you sieze to exist. What is our goal in life, to reproduce? What's the point of that, when there just going to die off anyways? There is completely no point in living. Once your gone, your gone, your never coming back. So whats the point of living if you have no way to reflect on what you were like after your dead? I get all choked up when i think about it, and it pisses me off, ALOT. RaeKwon | |
FuZzY DiCe wrote:
i hate you...now im deep in thought...gotta go sit on the john now. As i replied before, your an upnoxious fool. | |
Today I thought about life. What is the point of living, you die, and forget everything.. Wait.. Your dead, you don't live period. The energy in your body escapes out into the open, you sieze to exist. What is our goal in life, to reproduce? What's the point of that, when there just going to die off anyways? There is completely no point in living. Once your gone, your gone, your never coming back. So whats the point of living if you have no way to reflect on what you were like after your dead? I get all choked up when i think about it, and it pisses me off, ALOT. When you think about anything too long it seems pointless. Think about the spelling of a word too long makes it seem like everyway of writing it looks wrong. There are just some things you don't want to bother overthinking and just take some things for granite since some things will never have a proper explanation. Just think of your favorite game now try and reason exactly why you like and then move on to thinking why you like what you like. There are probably plenty of scientific reasons but if you look for reasons to the reasons you'll never find any absolute answer so you can believe what you want and no one can prove you wrong. | |
Heh... The funny thing is, while you see that outlook as a bad one... I find that philosophy on the meaninglessness of life to be very freeing...
It reminds me that life really doesn't need to be taken so seriously... I'm happier overall because I don't bother with worrying over everything... Because in the end, I realize that none of it really matters... That outlook on life has made me happier, while it makes others sad... It's all in your perspective... | |
I am bi-polar also. I was diagnosed a few years ago, but I have never used any medication. I make it through life by finding something that interests me and sticking to it. When it gets boring, I find something else. Music has helped me a lot during down times, as have good books.
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Dracon Wrote:
....am also getting a Playstation 2 tomorrow with 2 controllers, 5 games, and a gameshark for only $250.... so - yay. And remind, how exactly can you be depressed with that?! ROFL J/k | |
dude.. i know what its like
ive been diagnosed with borderline bi-polar but i have post-tramadic stress disorder, cronic anxiety and am a manic depressant, on top of that, im diabetic and have high blood pressure.. not a good way to live.. but i do what i can day by day the only kinda med i can take is valium because anything else messes up either my BP or my diabeties but.. i do what i can... just keep going.. things do get better! | |
just a quick reply, in my oppinion there is no reason to kill yourself, death will come when its ready, and also again in my oppinion that when you are dead there is another life, for i believe in God. And if you are every deppressed think about what you have in life, you have to favor the grass and the sky, it may sound corny but it does help.
-Joey | |
SuperSaiyanGokuX wrote:
I find that philosophy on the meaninglessness of life to be very freeing... It reminds me that life really doesn't need to be taken so seriously... I'm happier overall because I don't bother with worrying over everything... Because in the end, I realize that none of it really matters... I also have this same view on Life, it keeps me happy throughout the days knowing that in the end most of the things ou have done will not matter, There is some obvious rescrictions placed by myself like never hurting someone, i have yet to lay a finger on someone and dont plan on it. But it is most certainly refreshing to talk to people that have other views for example my girlfriend takes life pretty seriously, which rarley seems to cause conflicts between us but our views keep each others in check making sure that i dont become to care free and she doesnt become too serious about her life. Shes great! :) Maz | |
I'm getting Grand Theft Auto 3, Metal of Honor: Frontline, Medal Gear Solid II, GT3, and Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 3. So it's a really good deal. My friend is selling it to me.. originally he wanted 200 for it, but I felt bad and said I'd pay $250. =/
[edit] And the kitten has absoultely nothing to do with my recent depression... I've been planning to get one for some time now.