Did meth for the first time. All I know was it was under 1.6grams shared with me and another person. I took about 3-4 hits?
I know, I know, What I did was stupid stupid stupid. I really hate myself for doing it... I felt peer-peasured. Well that's how you learn in life, learn from your mistakes.
Well, I only enjoyed this for about an hour, and now I can't stop being depressed about what I did. I keep worrying if I'm going to get addicted. I think im willfuly strong not to fall under it. But the feel of the addictiveness is there...It's not like ciggerates where it creeps up on you. You can literally sense it in a way. I don't want to be addicted, I am NEVER trying this again. I'm not likeing it, it's making me depressed rather than happy. I feel like I wanna cry, and suicidal thoughts. But I know it's the drug and not me, So i'm keeping it straight.
But I thought this only occured in the withdrawal stage? Is it possible to skip the withdrawal stage?
I know myself that the addiction was going to be intense, but not this intense... I feel right now I am struggling with it to just go away. Right now this stuff has scared me so much, I am going to stay far away from it... I can tell it's addicting but I do not want anymore!
My mouth is like jaw clenching? Moving my mouth or w/e. I was wondering when/if that will go away. And I usualy stay up late and only get about 5 hours asleep anyway. I was wondering how the sleep stage will effect me?
And before you call me stupid, retarded, all that. I know. I'm only human, I make mistakes to.
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 Apr 10 2009, 12:07 am
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This really isn't the place to ask for that sort of help. Talk to parents, family or friends. Or your doctor. Nothing anyone here will be able to say will provide proper help.
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I think you are building it up in your old mind so much that it is causing problems. I haven't really heard of a person doing drugs once and suddenly becoming addicted to it.
Unless you are counting down the hours until your next hit, and willing to stab a old lady in the street to steal the money from her purse to buy more crystal meth, I don't think you are addicted, I don't think you have much to worry about. Just freaking relax. People try things, it happens. You learn from your life and move on. | |
Trosh Kubyo wrote:
I think you are building it up in your old mind so much that it is causing problems. I haven't really heard of a person doing drugs once and suddenly becoming addicted to it. That's fairly ridiculous. With many drugs a dealer will give away the first hit free because he knows the person will come back. For an addictive drug, addiction will set in after the first hit; the only question is of degree. It's safe to say that most people looking for a second hit probably aren't very addicted yet, but not to deny the addiction exists. Unless you are counting down the hours until your next hit, and willing to stab a old lady in the street to steal the money from her purse to buy more crystal meth, I don't think you are addicted, I don't think you have much to worry about. At that point he would be too far gone. That's like getting lost and not worrying about it until you're out of gas in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere. It's way too late at that point to wonder if you're on the right road. Not too late to try to turn things around, but at that point serious damage has been done and it's unlikely an addict at that stage is even going to seek or accept help. Give him credit for recognizing he made a stupid mistake and having the brains to question his decision now instead of later. Meth takes a person downhill very very quickly. He did the right thing by freaking out about it. Just freaking relax. People try things, it happens. You learn from your life and move on. That's really terrible advice; it's a lot more serious than that. It isn't the end of the world, but it's definitely worth talking over with family and friends and getting onto the right track before it's too late. I suppose I could understand your ambivalence if it was just pot at stake here, though even that isn't as harmless as advertised. Meth on the other hand is highly dangerous, and highly addictive. Taking steps now to ensure he doesn't look for a second hit is the absolute smartest thing he can do, even if it leads to some uncomfortable conversations. Lummox JR | |
Trosh Kubyo wrote:
Just freaking relax. People try things, it happens. You learn from your life and move on. Crystal Meth is a very, very dangerous drug. It's not a case of "try it and be okay". It isn't pot we're talkin', it's one of the most addictive and damaging illicit drugs out there. Depending on your state of mind, it can take several weeks of smoking to gain a dependency on nicotine. Crystal Meth can take a single hit. So it's very much not a "people try things, it happens", it's more a "you did crystal meth!? You [considerable amount of expleteives]!" Although this forum is definitely not the place to be discussing drugs however. You don't come to a gamers website to get advice on drug addictions any more than you go to a porn site to learn about spousal abuse. | |
Ok, it's starting to slow down. This has been one of the worst stressful LONG nights I have ever been through. I never knew you could get hurt so much just mentally. I would even go as far to say it hurts more than a physical attack. The word meth now creeps me out majorly. So I doubt Im going to try it again. It scared me/made me feel horrible more than it did good. I honestly don't see how meth users can handle this. But I guess it affects people differently.
But right now my body is extremly exhuasted, but as you may know, I cannot sleep worth a damn. So I guess just wait it out a little bit longer. And a good thing is im not depressed anymore. But I damn sure learned my lesson. | |
Well, meth addiction isn't ALL bad... You will have the cleanest house on the block and you will be a lot more active than most people. And hey, if you ever make it big, you won't be part of the "idle" rich because you'll always be bouncing off the walls. Invest in a motorcycle, man!
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Don't listen to 98% of the people who posted in this thread. They have no idea what they are talking about.
Listen, bud. You are not addicted, okay? You can't get addicted the first time you do Meth. You are just being paranoid because you are thinking about it too much. And before anyone questions me, just let me say I have done pretty much every drug out there, and more than once. This was back in high school when getting addicted to drugs was a lot easier than when you are older. You did it once, you learned your lesson, and you realized it was a stupid mistake. That's all, lesson learned. You're not going to turn into a crack addicts lying in the corner of an alley. Just don't do it again, and you will be fine. | |
Cavern wrote:
Listen, bud. You are not addicted, okay? You can't get addicted the first time you do Meth. You are just being paranoid because you are thinking about it too much. And before anyone questions me, just let me say I have done pretty much every drug out there, and more than once. This was back in high school when getting addicted to drugs was a lot easier than when you are older. For some reason, you seem to think crack is more addictive than meth, and that is simply not true. I hate talking about it, but I've tried both (stimulants are nasty) just to give it a shot, and I can say that crack was easy to walk away from. I tried it once and never had the urge to do it again. Meth, on the other hand, was a horrible experience for me and I still craved it for about three days after my initial experience, and on the second day, I had a lot of facial tension (like I was just itching to take more, it was disgusting). Tell me that is not an addicition. All it takes is one hit to get addicted, but to accept this you must note that there are different degrees of addiction. How you choose to act makes all the difference. Funny, too, because this was an experiment I had conducted with my friends, and everyone reacted similarly. Crack was easy to walk away from, but meth seemed to just call our names. We could not get it off our minds. As for you, Cavern, I find it hard to believe that you have done almost every drug out there. You only hear about a couple of them out on the streets, and only a small fraction are readily available. There are hundreds of recreational drugs out there. But anyway, who'd believe a druggie when he says "Duuude, you can't get addicted bro! Try some more!" I'd trust the truckloads of recovering meth addicts that say you can get addicted from the first hit. | |
PirateHead wrote:
Some heroin would probably help calm your nerves. For future reference on the forum, from experience, opium sucks. Don't do it. PS, everyone should watch Requiem for a Dream. | |
Trosh Kubyo wrote:
I think you are building it up in your old mind so much that it is causing problems. I haven't really heard of a person doing drugs once and suddenly becoming addicted to it. Have you heard of injecting heroin intravenously? There are statistics I read online somewhere that show the probability of you developing mental and physical dependence is somewhere in the ballpark of 90-95% the first time. | |
Go to your therapist, not the Developer Forums >_>
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CaptFalcon33035 wrote:
As for you, Cavern, I find it hard to believe that you have done almost every drug out there. You only hear about a couple of them out on the streets, and only a small fraction are readily available. There are hundreds of recreational drugs out there. In high school, two of my best friends were the biggest drug dealers in the entire county. I never even paid for the drugs, so you could imagine how much of it I was doing. I've tried Meth a couple of times, and I never had that itch feeling. Some people are obviously different. I just never had that "I have to have it again" feeling. I have done pretty much every drug I said, not all. It's not like there are secret, hidden drugs only 12 people know about. I've mixed and matched everything. But, this is not what the thread is about. I don't know where you get the number "hundreds" from though. When I said drugs, I don't mean sniffing glue. I am talking about heroine, cocaine, ecstasy, etc. I'm not proud of it, I can tell you that. I've actually had a couple of friends die from it. Pretty much gave me the motivation to stop, and I no longer hang out with those two kids. Now I'm into bodybuilding and staying healthy. Quite a turn around if you ask me. | |
Cavern wrote:
In high school, two of my best friends were the biggest drug dealers in the entire county. I never even paid for the drugs, so you could imagine how much of it I was doing. I've tried Meth a couple of times, and I never had that itch feeling. Some people are obviously different. I just never had that "I have to have it again" feeling. And you never realized that your friends were selling fake meth? | |
Cavern wrote:
When I said drugs, I don't mean sniffing glue. I am talking about heroine, cocaine, ecstasy, etc. I laughed a lot at that, that was good. Of course, you could call the intoxicants of glue part of the inhalants class of drugs, but that is not what I was referring to, no. My notion wasn't of all to begin with. You'd just be surprised the amount of recreational drugs there are out there that aren't widely known. For example, DMT (which has just begun gaining popularity due to a lot of media coverage. see Joe Rogen, Alex Grey), anything in the 2c family, all manner of tryptamines and phenethylamines(see TiHKaL and PiHKaL by Alexander Shulgin), methylone, any number of ancient sacred herbs (passion flower, blue lotus), deliriants (datura, belladonna, diphenhydramine), salvinorum A, muscimol, 5-MeO-DMT, 4-Acetoxy-DMT, all manner of newly discovered cannibanoids, mephedrone, sinicuichi, DOM, DOB, DOC, etc... The list goes on and on. And then you have the common ones: cannabis, opium and the opium related (heroine, morphine), meth, cocaine and cocaine-related, psylocin, mescaline, LSD, tobacco, any number of pain relievers or anti-anxiety medications, etc... Now I'm into bodybuilding and staying healthy. Quite a turn around if you ask me. Quite a turn-around indeed, but I'm starting to notice a trend. Many former drug abusers go this direction after abandoning their bad habits. Can the despair of drug abusage breed good health habits? | |
Trosh Kubyo wrote:
Who would have thought BYOND was full of so many disgusting drug users? Word! Stick to the non-disgusting drugs, kids. The guys who use the disgusting drugs are making us all look bad! | |
Perhaps I'm being stereotypical but I doubt you'll find any suitable advice from people in this forum. Perhaps you should seek advise in a more relevant/diverse forum?